i’ve had a bit of heavy week emotionally, and the other day i also (finally) got myself some subscribers on youtube (wow) and i thought “hey i should make a video!” so i did as soon as i had the house to myself for more than a couple of hours. and the video ended up being a 23 minute somewhat life update, where i get a bit emotional. it comes with a trigger / content warning for talk of death & grief. (from 5:00 til about 10:00, if you feel need to skip it. that’s ok, just stay safe.)
i felt 50% better once i’d filmed this. i haven’t really been able to talk to anyone about any of this, and i guess i needed to. besides the sad stuff, i also talk about band worries, probably going home in the summer and upcoming zine fests.
so.. blogging aye? i was going to start doing monthly favourites but kinda failed on january cos i forgot. then i made a video for combined january/february favourites but i never posted it here cos i was going to write a blog post to go with it but oops that ended up being too epic and i never finished it (too many fave things or something?) but here’s march favourites, even though march felt like i didn’t do or whatever anything new. video here, and i’ve written stuff about the stuff.
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TV ETC ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ SHADOWHUNTERS is still my jam. the last episode is tomorrow and i honestly do not know what i’m going to do once it finished. maybe buffy rewatch? incase you didn’t know, shadowhunters is based on a book series by Cassandra Clare called The Mortal Instruments and it’s about a young lady who discovers she’s a shadowhunter and gets dragged into a bunch of supernatural dramarama and stuff. it’s trashy but pretty good. it’s pretty much all my fave things and it’s got a Lot Of Brooding. angel beware. it’s on netflix pretty much everywhere but the us. cos it’s on ‘real’ tv there.
BOOKS ♥ ♥ ♥ speaking of shadowhunters…. Cassandra Clare released a new shadowhunter book on march 8th; Lady Midnight. it’s the first in a new series called Dark Artifices that’s set 5 years after the end of Mortal Instruments and well… obvs i got it. and.. OMG THE FEELS. it’s got murder mystery (yay! and i did Not guess who the villain was, well done) and ummm forbidden feels and brooding and stuff.instead of my usual just listening when i do housework, walk places or am on break, i would actually just go lay in bed and listen to it and sulk. i dont know if that says more about the book, or my mental state recently (hello mild depression my old friend) when i finished i was So Upset cos i’m going to have to wait til next year before i get my next fix. i’ll give it a month or two before i re-read and get punched in the feels some more
i actually re-read ALL OF THE PREVIOUS BOOKS (well, in audiobook form, as usual) in january/february. that’s six in Mortal Instruments series, and another three from the victorian prequel series which is called Infernal Devices and i actually like even better. so i can’t really re-read those to get my continuous fix, at least not quite yet. but luckily i found some short stories set between series so i’m ok for like this week maybe. i have about 6 stories left, and they’re all about my 2 faves from mortal instruments so yay. and i guess then there’s fanfic after that? gosh seriously i have a problem here. i’m currently so immersed in the world of shadowhunters that the other day at work i was just sitting there processing passports and thinking about simon lewis and mark blackthorn and (semi-unrelatedly) how the series/world needs (more?) queer gals. (i put more? in brackets cos honestly i can’t think of any explicitly queer gals in the series off the top of my head, maybe some implied fae or vamps but nope i’m drawing a blank. got some gay and bi dudes though. which is nice but i need some gals ok?) i may have tweeted the author about this too. there’s a fan convention next year in london and i’m kinda tempted to shell out £££££ (which i dont have) for a ticket and cosplay as femme!simon lewis cos a) that’s the only character with glasses and b) oops he’s my fave anyway. pls take this idea away from me. (im also sad cos i accidentally spoiled myself on an aspect of the last simon short story i have left oops while reading through the author’s tumblr.. damnit.)
MORE BOOKS ♥ ♥ ♥ i should have really had Lunar Chronicles series by Marissa Meyer as march favourite books but oops i finished lady midnight and shadowhunters took over my brain again :/ i very much highly recommend Lunar Chronicles though. each book is a futuristic sci-fi fantasy retelling of a classic fairytale but also is a part of a continuous story. first cyborg Cinderella in future asia. then we had Little Red Riding Hood in France, Rapunzel in space and Snow White on the Moon. when i was reading through it i was pretty much thinking CAN I JUST GO AND LISTEN TO MY STORIES whenever i was doing other things/unable to do stories. i think the only way i could have liked it more was if it had… ~*wait for it*~… some queer gals. sigh, sort it out YA fantasy stuff. (tbh lunar chronicles didnt have any queers i can think of. though it definitely did have relationships i got very emotionally invested in. hello fanfic later maybe?)
COMICS!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ march fave is going to be JONESY by Sam Humphries (writer) & Caitlin Rose Boyle (artist). i accidentally discovered this on twitter on valentine’s day when one of the comics people i stalk on there retweeted about it and i was like THAT’S CUTE. THAT SOUNDS INTERESTING. and ordered it on a whim from my usual comics supplier. and i was not disappointed. here’s a description i stole from the publisher’s website: “Jonesy is a self-described “cool dork” who spends her time making zines nobody reads, watching anime, and listening to riot grrrl bands and 1D simultaneously. But she has a secret nobody knows. She has the power to make people fall in love! Anyone. With anything. She’s a cupid in plaid. With a Tumblr. There’s only one catch-it doesn’t work on herself. She’s gonna have to find love the old-fashioned way, and in the meantime, figure out how to distract herself from the real emotions she inevitably has to face when her powers go wrong…” HOW COULD I NOT LOVE THIS? jonesy is basicly me. except for the cupid powers. and i’m not an actual teenager anymore. the art is super cute and badass too.<3
FOOD AND DRINK FAVES ♥ ♥ ♥ i discovered a replacement for my old fave squash that asda stopped making few months ago; Pear, Lychee & Green Tea high juice from tesco. it’s yum. and foodwise i’ve been lazy & obsessed this month (or at least for the last few weeks) and i’ve been making a lot of One Pot Spaghetti semi based on this recipe. i also add half a can (~190g) chopped tomatoes when i make this for me and carl. i’ve made it at least six times since i discovered it cos it’s so easy and makes so little mess and i’m stuck in a rut. i’ve also been making A Lot of roast baby potatoes + frozen pie (or some form of chicken) + sweetcorn & peas + instant gravy. i need to cook different things ASAP, i’ve been doing the weekly food shop in a rush for the last two weeks or so. think i need to make enchillada soup next/this week, get back to normal.
♥ ♥ ♥ BEST THING ♥ ♥ though about march has been that my new band Prophecy Girl is officially a thing, and we did a shoddy demo at last practice and you can listen to it at our bandcamp. i’m still a little terrified of it as it’s ~*not as good as it could be*~ and i’m still not used to my singing voice, or singing & playing at the same time (i only sing on the first track though) we’ve kind of got our first gig booked (may 6th) but i dont really have any details to share yet. i’m excited, and a little terrified.
♥ ♥ ♥ but yeah that’s my march. kind of. i mean i’ve been kind of down lately for a variety of reasons but hopefully now that spring is starting to be sprung hopefully things will be better. i can at least wear more of a variety of clothes i hope and not be constantly cold. i have many things i want to do this year and oops it seems three months of 2016 has already vanished into thin air. how did that happen? ugh. i look at the time / the date / the calendar and i’m terrified as hell. yeah, march hasn’t been the best, but what i have liked i have ~*loved*~ with passionate burning fangirl heart. *physically restrains self from going to just lie in bed and listen to my stories again* actually i’m running a zine workshop for kids tomorrow, i should go find some age appropriate (7+) samples to take with me. by the way this is harder than you’d think since 90% of all my zines have mentions of queerness or mental health or generally serious things ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
earlier this month i finally got to go to a FAT POSITIVE CLOTHES SWAP. i had been wanting to go to one since i first heard about them over a year ago. but every single time i’ve been either busy with something else, stuck at work or too broke for the train fare. usually a combo of the last two. but when this one (number eight!) was announced i was like I’M GOING THIS TIME, I DONT CARE WHAT. it being on a sunday this time helped with the work issue ha ha. and even though i’m currently hella broke and my rail card had run out on halloween and thus my train ticket was like 1/3 more than expected and trains were obvs all fucked I HAVE NO REGRETS. it was totally worth the effort. everyone was super duper nice and helping each other and even pickin stuff up for each other and just so nice. and honestly i have no words and you should go to the next one if you can. i’ve been struggling to write about it in any meaningful way / describe how awesome it was without just simply making gushing sounds ~ hence why it’s taken me ALMOST THREE WEEKS to write this… however i did do ~*a haul video*~ (cos ingrid said i should) a few days after the swap itself. it’s kind of long and rambly. deal with it.
a few days later i went outside and wore the long grey dress and when i got home it was still kinda light enough to take an OOTD. and then i took pictures in some of the other clothes too while the dinner was in the oven. so far i have only worn the grey dress (two or three times) the scarlett & jo skirt, stripy bat sleeve top and an almost matching black & grey stripey maxi skirt i appear to have forgotten to show off… oops. i’m going to a birthday barbecue on friday (yeah, barbecue in december.) and on saturday my friend cath is coming to medway to play a gig at poco loco with a million other things so i’ll have occasion to wear things! the pink papaya weekend dress will def get an outing but i haven’t decided which occasion gets that honour. (semi wish i could wear it both times, but sadly i’m a sweaty betty so probably not…)
ANYWAY, the next fat positive clothes swap is marked on the calendar under 21st February at DIY Space For London. unfortunately the swap doesn’t have any specific place i can link to but you can keep an eye on the Fat Positive London facebook group or @DIYArchivist (one of the organisers) on the twitter. i’ll most probably be retweeting the heck out of any announcements. if you don’t believe me, here’s an article about the swaps from Standard Issue magazine from back in june featuring some friends, and more words. someone was also making a video about the swap, and i was interviewed for it but it hasn’t surfaced yet. (i’ll probably post it when it does) while we’re linking things, here’s a article that bethany of arched eyebrow wrote a few weeks ago that was really good about ok?