life update vlog / rest in pissed-offness.

i’ve had a bit of heavy week emotionally, and the other day i also (finally) got myself some subscribers on youtube (wow) and i thought “hey i should make a video!” so i did as soon as i had the house to myself for more than a couple of hours. and the video ended up being a 23 minute somewhat life update, where i get a bit emotional. it comes with a trigger / content warning for talk of death & grief. (from 5:00 til about 10:00, if you feel need to skip it. that’s ok, just stay safe.)

i felt 50% better once i’d filmed this. i haven’t really been able to talk to anyone about any of this, and i guess i needed to. besides the sad stuff, i also talk about band worries, probably going home in the summer and upcoming zine fests.


 

MARCH FAVES ♥ ♥ ♥

so.. blogging aye? i was going to start doing monthly favourites but kinda failed on january cos i forgot. then i made a video for combined january/february favourites but i never posted it here cos i was going to write a blog post to go with it but oops that ended up being too epic and i never finished it (too many fave things or something?) but here’s march favourites, even though march felt like i didn’t do or whatever anything new. video here, and i’ve written stuff about the stuff.

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TV ETC ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ SHADOWHUNTERS is still my jam. the last episode is tomorrow and i honestly do not know what i’m going to do once it finished. maybe buffy rewatch? incase you didn’t know, shadowhunters is based on a book series by Cassandra Clare called The Mortal Instruments and it’s about a young lady who discovers she’s a shadowhunter and gets dragged into a bunch of supernatural dramarama and stuff. it’s trashy but pretty good. it’s pretty much all my fave things and it’s got a Lot Of Brooding. angel beware. it’s on netflix pretty much everywhere but the us. cos it’s on ‘real’ tv there.

BOOKS ♥ ♥ ♥ speaking of shadowhunters…. Cassandra Clare released a new shadowhunter book on march 8th; Lady Midnight. it’s the first in a new series called Dark Artifices that’s set 5 years after the end of Mortal Instruments and well… obvs i got it. and.. OMG THE FEELS. it’s got murder mystery (yay! and i did Not guess who the villain was, well done) and ummm forbidden feels and brooding and stuff.instead of my usual just listening when i do housework, walk places or am on break, i would actually just go lay in bed and listen to it and sulk. i dont know if that says more about the book, or my mental state recently (hello mild depression my old friend) when i finished i was So Upset cos i’m going to have to wait til next year before i get my next fix. i’ll give it a month or two before i re-read and get punched in the feels some more

i actually re-read ALL OF THE PREVIOUS BOOKS (well, in audiobook form, as usual) in january/february. that’s six in Mortal Instruments series, and another three from the victorian prequel series which is called Infernal Devices and i actually like even better. so i can’t really re-read those to get my continuous fix, at least not quite yet. but luckily i found some short stories set between series so i’m ok for like this week maybe. i have about 6 stories left, and they’re all about my 2 faves from mortal instruments so yay. and i guess then there’s fanfic after that? gosh seriously i have a problem here. i’m currently so immersed in the world of shadowhunters that the other day at work i was just sitting there processing passports and thinking about simon lewis and mark blackthorn and (semi-unrelatedly) how the series/world needs (more?) queer gals. (i put more? in brackets cos honestly i can’t think of any explicitly queer gals in the series off the top of my head, maybe some implied fae or vamps but nope i’m drawing a blank. got some gay and bi dudes though. which is nice but i need some gals ok?) i may have tweeted the author about this too. there’s a fan convention next year in london and i’m kinda tempted to shell out £££££ (which i dont have) for a ticket and cosplay as femme!simon lewis cos a) that’s the only character with glasses and b) oops he’s my fave anyway. pls take this idea away from me. (im also sad cos i accidentally spoiled myself on an aspect of the last simon short story i have left oops while reading through the author’s tumblr.. damnit.)

MORE BOOKS ♥ ♥ ♥ i should have really had Lunar Chronicles series by Marissa Meyer as march favourite books but oops i finished lady midnight and shadowhunters took over my brain again :/ i very much highly recommend Lunar Chronicles though. each book is a futuristic sci-fi fantasy retelling of a classic fairytale but also is a part of a continuous story. first cyborg Cinderella in future asia. then we had Little Red Riding Hood in France, Rapunzel in space and Snow White on the Moon. when i was reading through it i was pretty much thinking CAN I JUST GO AND LISTEN TO MY STORIES whenever i was doing other things/unable to do stories. i think the only way i could have liked it more was if it had… ~*wait for it*~… some queer gals. sigh, sort it out YA fantasy stuff. (tbh lunar chronicles didnt have any queers i can think of. though it definitely did have relationships i got very emotionally invested in. hello fanfic later maybe?)

COMICS!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ march fave is going to be JONESY by Sam Humphries (writer) & Caitlin Rose Boyle (artist). i accidentally discovered this on twitter on valentine’s day when one of the comics people i stalk on there retweeted about it and i was like THAT’S CUTE. THAT SOUNDS INTERESTING. and ordered it on a whim from my usual comics supplier. and i was not disappointed. here’s a description i stole from the publisher’s website: “Jonesy is a self-described “cool dork” who spends her time making zines nobody reads, watching anime, and listening to riot grrrl bands and 1D simultaneously. But she has a secret nobody knows. She has the power to make people fall in love! Anyone. With anything. She’s a cupid in plaid. With a Tumblr. There’s only one catch-it doesn’t work on herself. She’s gonna have to find love the old-fashioned way, and in the meantime, figure out how to distract herself from the real emotions she inevitably has to face when her powers go wrong…” HOW COULD I NOT LOVE THIS? jonesy is basicly me. except for the cupid powers. and i’m not an actual teenager anymore. the art is super cute and badass too.<3

FOOD AND DRINK FAVES ♥ ♥ ♥ i discovered a replacement for my old fave squash that asda stopped making few months ago; Pear, Lychee & Green Tea high juice from tesco. it’s yum. and foodwise i’ve been lazy & obsessed this month (or at least for the last few weeks) and i’ve been making a lot of One Pot Spaghetti semi based on this recipe. i also add half a can (~190g) chopped tomatoes when i make this for me and carl. i’ve made it at least six times since i discovered it cos it’s so easy and makes so little mess and i’m stuck in a rut. i’ve also been making A Lot of roast baby potatoes + frozen pie (or some form of chicken) + sweetcorn & peas + instant gravy. i need to cook different things ASAP, i’ve been doing the weekly food shop in a rush for the last two weeks or so. think i need to make enchillada soup next/this week, get back to normal.

♥ ♥ ♥ BEST THING ♥ ♥ though about march has been that my new band Prophecy Girl is officially a thing, and we did a shoddy demo at last practice and you can listen to it at our bandcamp. i’m still a little terrified of it as it’s ~*not as good as it could be*~ and i’m still not used to my singing voice, or singing & playing at the same time (i only sing on the first track though) we’ve kind of got our first gig booked (may 6th) but i dont really have any details to share yet. i’m excited, and a little terrified.

♥ ♥ ♥ but yeah that’s my march. kind of. i mean i’ve been kind of down lately for a variety of reasons but hopefully now that spring is starting to be sprung hopefully things will be better. i can at least wear more of a variety of clothes i hope and not be constantly cold. i have many things i want to do this year and oops it seems three months of 2016 has already vanished into thin air. how did that happen? ugh. i look at the time / the date / the calendar and i’m terrified as hell. yeah, march hasn’t been the best, but what i have liked i have ~*loved*~ with passionate burning fangirl heart. *physically restrains self from going to just lie in bed and listen to my stories again* actually i’m running a zine workshop for kids tomorrow, i should go find some age appropriate (7+) samples to take with me. by the way this is harder than you’d think since 90% of all my zines have mentions of queerness or mental health or generally serious things ¯\_(ツ)_/¯


 

new zines and things <3

so yes i did two new zines. and i’mma gonna plug them for you now. that and other zine stuff, ok?


YOUR PRETTY FACE IS GOING STRAIGHT TO HELL #23
24 pages – quarter size

i wrote about writer’s block and unfinished writing business, my favourite old lady hobbies = knitting and crocheting, and trying to get a new band together & going. there’s also my favourite brownie recipe (it’s not vegan though, sorry)

you can buy it via vampire sushi distro,
or my newly reopened etsy shop,
or you can paypal me £2.95 (£2 + p&p)
or i’ll also do trades (as long as it’s a fair trade)
talk to me, we’ll figure it out ♥



VAMPIRE SUSHI #6    30 pages – quarter size

the semi annual vampire sushi distro’s birthday compilation zine of art and stories and junk. this issue includes comics, art work and stories, including rupert giles/ethan rayne fic *wink wink* it took me three months to put together cos a) we got lots of submissions and b) i don’t know i was busy or overwhelmed or lazy or something? who knows.   ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥  you can buy it via vampire sushi distro

in other zine related news, i tabled at Weirdo Zine Fest back in january (31st) at DIY space for london. it was ace. i mean the trains were a suckfest of replacement buses all the way from meopham, and i may have cried when i got there for reasons, and there were So Many People there it was a little overwhelming (but in a good way??) but on the whole i had a good time. i got to see & kind of hang out with friends i don’t get to see very often. i didn’t really take any pictures (too busy having fun or something?) but here’s a picture cherry took a picture of me & my stall for me, my personal zine fest haul (trades & purchases) and me drowning in new and old distro stock after opening my backpack post zine fest!

seriously, i came home with so many new zines for the distro, and i’d ordered a bunch of new stock in preparation for the zine fest, as the distro stock levels were woefully low at the change of the year. some of it actually only arrived last week because ugh surface mail is slow and airmail was wayyyy too much. i’m not kidding though, 25 new zines (well ok four of those are re-stock but still!) so many descriptions to write! ugh my least favourite bit of being a distro mistress :/ anyway, here is the other plugging my things part of this post: CHECK OUT ALL THIS NEW STUFF AT VAMPIRE SUSHI DISTRO PLEASE?

NEW IN STOCK: bitter feels: a non-binary femme affirmation zine, critical breakfast #1 / telegram #38, flourish #1, flourish #2, forever incomplete #4, here. in my head #17, motor city kitty #23, motor city kitty #24, motor city kitty #25, motor city kitty #26, motor city kitty #27, say hi and wave #1, say hi and wave #2, scorpio moon #1, scratch that itch #5, sonorus #3, tritch witch, vampire sushi #6, what is left: a zine about grief, your pretty face is going straight to hell #23, zinester’s retreat.
BACK IN STOCK: mythologising me #10, scratch that itch #3, scratch that itch #4, tempest in a teacup #7.